Saturday, January 27, 2007

Hopping over little fences

I'm pleased to report that I've been almost entirely free of the most destructive mood swings for almost eight weeks. It's the longest I've been without prolonged emotional agony in six years. I put this down to three things:
1. Am having a course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which is helping me to think in a more functional way
2. I've only touched one alcoholic drink in two months (although my heart did leap when a girl spilt wine on my arm, giving me no choice other than to lick off the winey goodness.)
3. I've got back into regular swimming which takes the aggressive edge off the hypomanic moods.

There's still a long way to go before I can get back to full time employment but things are heading in the right direction. I'm still being troubled by the following:
- my medication makes it hard to get up without 10-12 hours sleep
- I find it hard to discipline myself to keep a regular eating pattern
- chores like cooking meals and doing laundry seem largely unmanageable on most days
- there are occasions when I suffer from extreme anxiety about socialising on mass

All in all, there are still obstacles getting in the way of smooth living, but it's more like hopping over little fences than hurling my body at wapping great brick walls.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

That's great news Sha :) Rachele x

puddlejumper said...

Glad you are feeling better. How are you finding the CBT?

I ask because I'm currently on the waiting list (I have Bipolar II) and am hopeful it might help.

I'm also on the wagon though its early days for me (two weeks and counting)

:-)

Sha said...

CBT is incredibly effective. It helps you deal with events that could otherwise trigger mood swings, get out of ruts and also helps you find ways to make staying off the drink easier.

It's such a shame that people have to wait for this treatment because it can change your life.

kathrin said...

i am glad you're doing so well. and i wish you all the strengh you need on your way...

xxx